1. |
shut up
01:02
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shut up
i dont deserve your love
im just a stupid
narcissistic
chump
i cant accept
these words
i cant no matter
how much it will
hurt
im evil, worthless, sex obsessed
im paranoid and so depressed
so think again before you
waste your time
im jealous, dying, close to crying
swear to god im sick of trying
please just let it go
just turn away
im nothing, nowhere
in my head
addicted to the
internet
so please spare me the
pain of seeing
you get sick of me
and leaving
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2. |
i heart mario kart
01:00
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i heart
mario kart
i used to play with the
boys after school
or golden eye
on 64
eating pizza and
smoking dujour
thats the best its
ever gonna get
no reason to grow up
holding your breath
we didn't know how
good we had it
til we got into
college, and then
writing papers, studying
making works of art
but nothing measures up
against the weight
in your heart
we used to do shit
we used to rock and roll
now its 9 to 5
and down bad radio
thats the best its
eveer gonna get
no reason to grow up
holding your breath
we didnt know how
good we had it til you
graduate
and then you die
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3. |
doomscrolling
02:33
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every now and then I feel vibrations in my hands
i can't believe how sick i am of seeing my reflection in the screen
there's something weird inside my brain I feel alone i can't explain
i can't believe how bad i feel when i see all my friends are doing great
simulations pull me deeper just like thoughts of distant
conversations begging to be saved from all the pain as they
decay
expectations drift into the pulsing blades of squarewave
oscillations frequencies increase until their sighing makes a song
every now and then i start to hate my only friends
i have to look away i have to cull the breeding pain inside my heart
i grab a drum machine and pickup my guitar
and make the most pathetic song i've ever made so far
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4. |
software
01:59
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i wish i lived in a world where
software was just a soft thing you wear
and i wish that the web was just a thing
between your eyes and your skull
and i wish that video games were just
a scathing insult
and i wish that a computer was just
a piece of glass on my wall
and i wish that i could say
that i need you, love you,
want to fuck you
i gotta let it out
i gotta tell you now
that i need you so much
i'd never go online again
if you so much as take my hand
tell me that im yours
i wish i lived in a world where
charm was just numbers on a screen
and i wish that i got a level up
every time i felt like i wanted to die
and i wish that loneliness was an
early game boss, weak against lightning
and i wish that i could just click a button
that cries out, "i like you"
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5. |
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im making a movie
about myself
if you want a part
that would be swell
we start shooting
sometime soon
just waiting on the camera
and the tv crew
you'll have a seat
at the big premiere
you'll meet the jacksons
they'll all be there
you can turn to me
at the final cue
you can say its charming
but kinda blue
ill say its so chic
ill say its art
you want a happy ending
you expected more
but love is on the cutting room floor
i don't need a character
to get in the way
leave a lot of loose ends
when they run away
i don't need a story
with a meaningless role
if you want to leave
leave before we roll
and i don't understand
the appeal of love
don't make me cry
that ain't no fun
cause im the one
whos living the scene
so write the script
and be nice to me
ill direct your life
we'll get a real good take
you'll be out of focus
but you'll feel ok
and when you sigh
ill cut away
i won't your heart break
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6. |
gf
02:05
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why can't i
just rewind
to those days when
you were online
misery please
message me
please log on
i miss you
january
came and went and
all my emails
went unread so
f my inbox
f my life
i can't go on
this isn't right
i cant go on
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7. |
i think its cool
02:18
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i think its cool
that im on my own
i always dreamt
of being alone
why should i envy
what i cannot have
friends and love and having fun
why should i care about that
why should i care that i
cant live all my dreams
why should i notice
i feel incomplete
one, two, three, four
i love to feel forgotten
and i think its pretty cool
to be totally alone
and i love to spend all day on the computer
not knowing what the hell im doing with myself
and i love having no one to talk to
like ever
and i think its pretty cool to lie about
how you're doing to everyone you know
And i love that i already know that
they don't care
and they never will
all i need is myself
why should i care
why should i notice
ill never care
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8. |
valley boy
00:14
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its hot as a bitch
its 115 out here
all i need is a
hat and a coke and a
smoke and ill be feeling
real cool
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9. |
can't
02:28
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you can't do what your friends do
you can only bide your time
and watch them from behind
you can't jam with the cool kids
you can only stand aside
and watch them have fun
but i should have much more to give
there's a place in that world waiting for me
and i should have much more to give
there's a sound inside of me waiting to scream
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10. |
gas
02:45
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food grade chemicals
soothe my soul
but gas can never
fill this gaping
hole inside my
heart
AFK
Don't even know what game to play
im living like a zombie
i have nothing in my brain
be cool
i don't know where to start
i'll always be a loser
huffing gas inside my car
and i don't know how to get my life on track
can't do anything with this pain on my back
and i could never be your only one
everybodys got someone but me
im just a fool
goblin mode
i long for the days of old
with magic, dragons, elven lands
take me anywhere but where i am
waking up
spells certain doom
doomed to just hit whip its
all alone inside my room
and ill never say i miss you because i
never even had to guts to catch your eye
and ill never see the sorrows go away
everybody knows that im insane
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11. |
the skeleton's riddle
01:43
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if friends with me
you wish to be
you first must answer
my riddles three
one
how are you
are you doing alright
are you still in school
have you met a girl whos nice
two
do you think you care
how things turn out
will you ever regret
letting everyone down
three
will it ever get better
will you ever feel ok
will happiness ever just be another day
four
five
six
seven
eight
nine
ten years later and you're still in bed
wake up
let's get this bread
i think not im too tired
just pretend im dead
i'll close my eyes
and fantasize
a different place
a different time
where im much more
than the man i am
and every little hang-up
doesn't feel like the end
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12. |
icedrop
01:19
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when i look at you
i feel how i wanna be
doing nothing new
makes me feel diseased
tractor soles on the ricks
icedrop tears
take my fucking hand
please take me out of here
im a gargoyle
slim silhouette in the lamp oil
slab on my hip keeps me
anchored to the soil
if i go off
i might float off, disappear
if i go off
i might float off, disappear
i know now
why i shaved my head
leaving shadows in the streets
bloody sky yeah thats red
you know i care for you
you're all i see
except when the table
comes between you and me
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13. |
love fantasy
00:50
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we got nothing in common
you're a princess and im a goblin
you're in the tower
im in the dungeon
you're reading poetry
im stealing crutons
you're making muffins
im making xanax
you're eating popsicles
im eating rats
i eat rats
maybe she will
look my way
on judgement day
and she will play
my goblin games
we will have
so much fun
but until then
im just a goblin
with a gun
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14. |
smell girl
02:26
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more than pheromones
i like you for who you are
i love smell of girl
when shes doing something she loves
and i couldn't know you better
like i know you
and you could like me better
like i like you
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15. |
maybe i'm a libra
02:04
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maybe im a libra
maybe just dumb
or just cant stand
that i need someone
i could never say
that i need you now
inhibitions always
bring me down
i think too much
and i love too much
and when i think of you
i hurt too much
i want to cry
im about to break
i want to touch you
but im so afraid
i always get fucked up
when it comes to you
i dont think i can treat you
the way i want to
i need someone
and it feels like hell
if the feelings fade
thats just as well
because im not cool
and im so damn weak
and ill probably only care
for a few more weeks
then ill forget
and my pain will cease
and pretty soon
i wont even know your face
i get so fucking down
i fucking hate it
just a living scar
infatuated
try so fucking hard
to fucking say it
grab this stupid heart
and fucking break it
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16. |
about adobe flash...
02:38
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turn on dads computer
turn on dads computer
its saturday and i wanna play
some games online
its so fun
to play my favorite games
on the weekend
ive been waiting for this moment
all week
to play some games
while dad is still asleep
pretty much anything with stickmen and guns
you can count me in
hell, i might even play some tower defense
from time to time
if im feeling edgy ill watch some
madness combat
or go to newgrounds
and play an inuyasha dating sim
anytime you see that crazy monkey tag
you know you're in for a good time
i dont mind the gore
or the poorly drawn anime girls
in fact, all of it seems mythical
and larger than life
and if i could stay here forever
i probably would
no more loneliness,
insecurity, death
only good stuff
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17. |
bad joke
00:43
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i can tell by the look on your face
i probably didnt say the right thing
again
i talk
for a while
tell a joke
fake a smile
zoom out
you're confused
breathe in
try again
ill just talk until i get a reaction
ill go until you feel alright
then pray to god i forget what i said
for the rest of my life
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18. |
big stupid
02:11
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let go
you're not a poser
you just don't know
what to do
stop
trying so hard
relax and it'll come
to you
you don't need
much advice
just a little bit of
time, confidence
make it alright
you think you're punk
but it's ok to lie
it's ok to not know
what you want
it's only right
it'll come
with time
it'll come
with time
these things pass
they always do
so i'll let you figure it out
all on your own
but for now
you think you're punk
it's ok to not know
what you want
in this time
tell me if you think
everything is true
everything that anyone has
said about you
do you like what they say
does it make you paranoid
do you wanna get the heck up
and get annoyed
i miss the times we had
in the old days
gamecube after school
staying up late
wasn't that so cool
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19. |
september
01:15
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do you remember
the first week of september
when we got to know each
other just enough
I can't believe it's so much time
like half my life has passed me by
since we ditched our friends to stay out late
waiting for the night all goddamn day
then days came
that wouldn't end
just driving around til 5 am
one year later I don't know how to feel
should I cry or just let it go
I never wanted that week to end
even now I don't want to go home
did we make the most of it
did we make the most of it
the time, our time together is up
I hope you had me and had enough
cause that's it
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20. |
...unfinished track
00:56
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like the night
we killed the car
we pressed onward
through the dark
until sunrise
I can't forget
I'll miss it
when we're just friends
10 years from now
if we're still alive
we should get together
and pretend to be fine
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